Sunday, May 17th, 1998
In view of recent developments
So what about all this? I'm arriving at some conclusions here, I think, about "life on the net" and my own emotions. Sure there's love on the net, but if you take it into the real world it's more often than not a recipe for disaster, if not now, so later. The fact that my immediate surroundings are filled with successful net love stories doesn't do much to disprove this theory, I think, but then again, it might just be me.
The Internet is a great communication tool, maybe the best way there is to escape reality for a while and wonderful for keepin in touch with your friends, but it is _not_ the world. You can't _live_ on the net, even though a part of you might have its home there (and part of me does, that's for sure). One of the accidental advantages of my "crasn'n'burn" this winter was that I got a real life, as I logged on the net less and less, and this might have been exactly what I needed to get myself together. I might not be there yet, but I started seeing my real life as something good again, not just periods of hanging on until I could log on again for my next "fix". Some online friends suffered from this, and it saddens me that I deserted them like that, but I hope that they see the need for a real life. If nothing else, so to put what happens online in perspective.
The "what did I do on my holidays" bit:
I've been rollerblading all weekend, several hours a day, and it feels great. I don't feel like a neurotic giraffe anymore, I feel more and more in control, and like I know what I'm doing. The added spice of removing the brake from the things, then cruising around town (it is a fairly big town) made things more interesting as well. I also played with Soft Air Guns a bit, me, my brothers (Barry & the Count) and our bud J went out in the woods, divided up into teams, and blasted away at each other. All we had was a pistol each, with about 14 rounds, and we frequently missed 4 or 5 shots in a row at point blank range, even though we can all put a full magazine through a paper bag at 5 meters or more in "non-combat" conditions. It was great fun, though, now we just have to add the scenario parts to it. Another form of "virtual reality", though this one really hurts unless you duck :).
